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i know i owe you relationship reply too so i can do it here
i know i owe you relationship reply too so i can do it here
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FED LOV HENK??? She does not know how to Actual Human Relationships so she's bad at showing it and it ends up manifesting itself in crawling in his lap and apologizing for stuff that she doesn't understand all the time, LAUGH. She confuses herself a lot with Hank because he's a) really genuinely nice and sweet and also b) huge. You have to understand that she's spent a lot of time in canon surrounding herself with big tough guys that she has wrapped around her finger as a kind of literal wall between her and the world. So Hank fits neatly into that slot in her mind EXCEPT HE'S ACTUALLY NICE and is nice to her Just Because instead of being nice to her because she's In Charge and powerful like her canon minions dò. She feels generally kind of guilty and unworthy of his kindness all the time, even though it makes her really really R E A L L Y happy. So the result is that she feels like she HAS to apologize to him constantly for being herself but she can't understand why or what she's really apologizing for, which makes her more frustrated and angry and [/fishands] and basically she doesn't know what to do with those feelings. So. That's a thing.
Another thing is. In the game. 8') She's mad right back at Hank for not lying down and letting himself be protected, how dare!!! Part of it is just this huge frustration at not being able to DO anything for her team, because she's missed most of the trauma games and the ones she's in, she comes out pretty unscathed. She has never died in Kyr except for in Roxy's Heart where she was left on her own for ten minutes and promptly killed herself twenty times in a row L A U G H. It is partially actually caring about her team and not wanting them to be hurt but it is also partially this twisted, like, jealousy? That she feels like she's isolated from the rest of the team because she's never physically suffered for them and OBVIOUSLY if they won't let me kill myself for them then THEY MUST HATE ME AND NOT WANT MY HELP I'm so sorry for this trash child, she has to make everything about HER and HER FEELINGS. So there's a lot of straight-up hypocrisy there because even though! she actually DOES want to protect her team!! it is mostly about making herself feel better. When she told Hank that she wanted to protect something for once in her life she was being very literal and straight-forward, because she has figured that in her entire life she has only ever been capable of hurting and burdening people, and her attempts in kyr to protect people always seem to get interrupted or go wrong like in GM game, so she's just increasingly frustrated because if she can't do something real and physical that matters, she can't convince herself that she's wanted or needed.
(That's why she was so elated after Yaksini's game, where she lied to Hank about putting in the answer and she was RIGHT and she STOPPED HIM FROM HAVING TO GET HURT and YAY I DID SOMETHING GOOD FOR ONCE, MAYBE MY EXISTANCE CAN BE JUSTIFIED even though she lied to his face which is kind of bad. who cares. it worked, that's all that matters.)
of course this means that sHE. WILL SERIOUSLY NOT UNDERSTAND HIS ANGER OVER THE MIND CONTROL THING until someone really fully explains it to her because she has a very "ends justify the means" kind of thought process and figures that doing stuff like this (controlling people FOR THEIR OWN GOOD) is the only way she can twist her powers into something worthwhile, instead of just being this awful thing that dominated and ruined her whole life.
sorry hank this girl is kind of super fucked up but. she lovs u :c :c :c
FED LOV HENK??? She does not know how to Actual Human Relationships so she's bad at showing it and it ends up manifesting itself in crawling in his lap and apologizing for stuff that she doesn't understand all the time, LAUGH. She confuses herself a lot with Hank because he's a) really genuinely nice and sweet and also b) huge. You have to understand that she's spent a lot of time in canon surrounding herself with big tough guys that she has wrapped around her finger as a kind of literal wall between her and the world. So Hank fits neatly into that slot in her mind EXCEPT HE'S ACTUALLY NICE and is nice to her Just Because instead of being nice to her because she's In Charge and powerful like her canon minions dò. She feels generally kind of guilty and unworthy of his kindness all the time, even though it makes her really really R E A L L Y happy. So the result is that she feels like she HAS to apologize to him constantly for being herself but she can't understand why or what she's really apologizing for, which makes her more frustrated and angry and [/fishands] and basically she doesn't know what to do with those feelings. So. That's a thing.
Another thing is. In the game. 8') She's mad right back at Hank for not lying down and letting himself be protected, how dare!!! Part of it is just this huge frustration at not being able to DO anything for her team, because she's missed most of the trauma games and the ones she's in, she comes out pretty unscathed. She has never died in Kyr except for in Roxy's Heart where she was left on her own for ten minutes and promptly killed herself twenty times in a row L A U G H. It is partially actually caring about her team and not wanting them to be hurt but it is also partially this twisted, like, jealousy? That she feels like she's isolated from the rest of the team because she's never physically suffered for them and OBVIOUSLY if they won't let me kill myself for them then THEY MUST HATE ME AND NOT WANT MY HELP I'm so sorry for this trash child, she has to make everything about HER and HER FEELINGS. So there's a lot of straight-up hypocrisy there because even though! she actually DOES want to protect her team!! it is mostly about making herself feel better. When she told Hank that she wanted to protect something for once in her life she was being very literal and straight-forward, because she has figured that in her entire life she has only ever been capable of hurting and burdening people, and her attempts in kyr to protect people always seem to get interrupted or go wrong like in GM game, so she's just increasingly frustrated because if she can't do something real and physical that matters, she can't convince herself that she's wanted or needed.
(That's why she was so elated after Yaksini's game, where she lied to Hank about putting in the answer and she was RIGHT and she STOPPED HIM FROM HAVING TO GET HURT and YAY I DID SOMETHING GOOD FOR ONCE, MAYBE MY EXISTANCE CAN BE JUSTIFIED even though she lied to his face which is kind of bad. who cares. it worked, that's all that matters.)
of course this means that sHE. WILL SERIOUSLY NOT UNDERSTAND HIS ANGER OVER THE MIND CONTROL THING until someone really fully explains it to her because she has a very "ends justify the means" kind of thought process and figures that doing stuff like this (controlling people FOR THEIR OWN GOOD) is the only way she can twist her powers into something worthwhile, instead of just being this awful thing that dominated and ruined her whole life.
sorry hank this girl is kind of super fucked up but. she lovs u :c :c :c
Tell me about every single feel Clover will have when Kaito comes back!!
CATS ARE NOT THE ENEMY CLOVER!1 I'm sorry Kaito is good at befriending individuals who may potentially be dangerous. . .
HE WAS VERY HAPPY TO SEE HER, TBH. Her and Ed and Puma. At the point everyone finally decided to visit it had been ten days, and despite leaving a letter no one had written him back or come to visit him in that time period. He was starting to feel a bit forgotten about, and in a realm like Little Witch's which is sssso enclosed an prison-like, ten days without contact with the outside world was beginning to drive him a bit nuts. So when Clover showed up, he was happy! But of course she showed up with terrible news, which sort of shot the happiness in the foot and drove him straight into OH GOD I LEAVE AND EVERYTHING GOES TO HELL WHY. So he fussed, tried to talk to her, tried to do some "normal" things with her to get her mind off of the impending doom of everyone in Kyr. Some of it worked, some of it didn't. . . he tried his best not to press where he knew he shouldn't press because he didn't want to chase her off, too. So while he was grateful for the visit and genuinely happy to see her, he did sort of feel like he was walking on eggshells a bit.
Overall he meant it when he told her she was glad she stopped by, and the visit ended on a high note that left him feeling pretty good! So while he's fussing and even more eager to get back to the main part of Kyr than he was before, he feels pretty satisfied with the conversation he had with her. :|a (He is preparing for a potential fight when he gets back tho because CLOVER YOU CANNOT THREATEN TO KILL PEOPLE'S FRIENDS EVEN IF THEY ARE ON CAT TEAM 8( but that is a different matter entirely and he's going to do his best to avoid that :U)
WILL SHE COME VISIT AGAIN??
HE WAS VERY HAPPY TO SEE HER, TBH. Her and Ed and Puma. At the point everyone finally decided to visit it had been ten days, and despite leaving a letter no one had written him back or come to visit him in that time period. He was starting to feel a bit forgotten about, and in a realm like Little Witch's which is sssso enclosed an prison-like, ten days without contact with the outside world was beginning to drive him a bit nuts. So when Clover showed up, he was happy! But of course she showed up with terrible news, which sort of shot the happiness in the foot and drove him straight into OH GOD I LEAVE AND EVERYTHING GOES TO HELL WHY. So he fussed, tried to talk to her, tried to do some "normal" things with her to get her mind off of the impending doom of everyone in Kyr. Some of it worked, some of it didn't. . . he tried his best not to press where he knew he shouldn't press because he didn't want to chase her off, too. So while he was grateful for the visit and genuinely happy to see her, he did sort of feel like he was walking on eggshells a bit.
Overall he meant it when he told her she was glad she stopped by, and the visit ended on a high note that left him feeling pretty good! So while he's fussing and even more eager to get back to the main part of Kyr than he was before, he feels pretty satisfied with the conversation he had with her. :|a (He is preparing for a potential fight when he gets back tho because CLOVER YOU CANNOT THREATEN TO KILL PEOPLE'S FRIENDS EVEN IF THEY ARE ON CAT TEAM 8( but that is a different matter entirely and he's going to do his best to avoid that :U)
WILL SHE COME VISIT AGAIN??
SORRY CLOVER...
Hope really, really, really likes Clover. She actually kind of reminds him of Lightning - and Lightning is that one person he absolutely looks up to in the games because he really admires her strength and courage. That applies to Clover! He admires her so much and also, she was there when he was scared and unsure and he didn't know how to handle the bad stuff. She showed him a little kindness and he latched onto it and didn't let go.
He feels awful for the torture thing still and he actually keeps replaying it over and over and over again in his head because he tried so hard to keep it from being that bad but he would always mess up and he's amazed that Clover even still wants to talk to him in the first place. He really wants to try to make it up to her but he's not sure how and he has nightmares about it EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. He cares so much about Clover, though. :( He really values her opinion and what she thinks and wants her to be well and she is kind of in the Mom Slot so please don't die like his mom did Clover—
ALSO TALKING ABOUT MAGIC, while he wouldn't mind, would also make him hesitate a little 'cause he's a l'Cie and while he doesn't think Clover knows what a l'Cie is he'd be scared that she'd treat him like every other person except the Main Party of FFXIII and his mom have treated him, which was pretty awful due to Pulse fear. His feelings are largely mixed and she'd probably end up seeing that. :C
will clover be mad if she finds out that his raise magic failed and he koed himself
Hope really, really, really likes Clover. She actually kind of reminds him of Lightning - and Lightning is that one person he absolutely looks up to in the games because he really admires her strength and courage. That applies to Clover! He admires her so much and also, she was there when he was scared and unsure and he didn't know how to handle the bad stuff. She showed him a little kindness and he latched onto it and didn't let go.
He feels awful for the torture thing still and he actually keeps replaying it over and over and over again in his head because he tried so hard to keep it from being that bad but he would always mess up and he's amazed that Clover even still wants to talk to him in the first place. He really wants to try to make it up to her but he's not sure how and he has nightmares about it EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. He cares so much about Clover, though. :( He really values her opinion and what she thinks and wants her to be well and she is kind of in the Mom Slot so please don't die like his mom did Clover—
ALSO TALKING ABOUT MAGIC, while he wouldn't mind, would also make him hesitate a little 'cause he's a l'Cie and while he doesn't think Clover knows what a l'Cie is he'd be scared that she'd treat him like every other person except the Main Party of FFXIII and his mom have treated him, which was pretty awful due to Pulse fear. His feelings are largely mixed and she'd probably end up seeing that. :C
will clover be mad if she finds out that his raise magic failed and he koed himself
bonding over being hated by everyone Y...AY...??
yes he's alive, he just bumped into the powercap after giving blood to vanara after losing his own blood due to the kneecapping and then they forgot to get the bullets out until vash happened ?_? takshaka man
also he can't help it okay SHE JUST SEEMS LIKE SUCH A MOM TYPE
yes he's alive, he just bumped into the powercap after giving blood to vanara after losing his own blood due to the kneecapping and then they forgot to get the bullets out until vash happened ?_? takshaka man
also he can't help it okay SHE JUST SEEMS LIKE SUCH A MOM TYPE
YES
HE MAY, IN FACT, BE WRITING TO HER NOW
What is the one thing Clover needs more than ANYTHING ELSE right now?
HE MAY, IN FACT, BE WRITING TO HER NOW
What is the one thing Clover needs more than ANYTHING ELSE right now?
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CHECK ON TEAM AND EXPLORE YES. and then check on the cats. and. . . maybe call out and snark at nyssa. . . just to make himself feel better. :'( he might hold off on making that stupid decision for a while, though. BUT IF HE RETURNS TO TIAMAT AS A PONY YOU CAN PUNCH HIM, CLOVER
does clover have any thoughts on nyssa or on the teams that played those cards on tiamat during the game?
CHECK ON TEAM AND EXPLORE YES. and then check on the cats. and. . . maybe call out and snark at nyssa. . . just to make himself feel better. :'( he might hold off on making that stupid decision for a while, though. BUT IF HE RETURNS TO TIAMAT AS A PONY YOU CAN PUNCH HIM, CLOVER
does clover have any thoughts on nyssa or on the teams that played those cards on tiamat during the game?
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