hyanaimne | Exsilium

No, no, it is not your fault. Are you okay? I did not mean to harm anyone with that spell, I am so sorry that you were hurt.

i know you didn't. and i'm okay, it was just my shoulder and some bruises. my own stupid fault for panicking

i was working on convincing him to give your magic back, but i think sonya might've just undone that. i'm sorry for that, too

I'm truly sorry. I did not even think the room itself would bother anyone. I am glad you are okay.

I do not even understand why she is doing it! Is this not going to make things worse? I am angry at Jesse, yes, but that is because he did not tell me why! And I certainly do not want people ganging up on him because of all this!

Edited 2013-11-23 18:39 (UTC)

[She takes a few deep breaths, trying to focus, trying to calm down.]

with the combination of the power system being taken offline, even for someone without claustrophobia it wasn't ideal. it was lucky i had a light on me. we can't change what happened, but if you ever need to make a spell like that again, against friends, it's something to keep in mind.

she's doing it because she hates jesse, and she wants everyone else to hate him.

I can assure you that I will never be using that spell again. At least, not up here, and not when there is a risk of you or anyone else getting trapped in it.

[The UE, though? Fair game. She'll send them to another dimension or out into space without a second thought]

This is only going to make things far worse and I haven't a clue as to how to fix it other than to make sure no one I have contact with will try to hurt him.

that's reassuring to hear. thank you, tempest

if you'd be willing, i'd suggest talking to him. if you show that you understand why he did it, he might be more willing to accept an apology and give it back. despite what sonya says, i don't think he enjoys hurting people like that, and i don't think he wants to keep hurting a friend.

it might be best to have saul or me there with you, to help keep him calm. if you do wanna do it.

You are welcome. And again, I am very sorry.

I do not think he does either, to be honest. He has never been nothing but kind to me in the past. He was a good friend who I trusted.

But I would be willing to do that - actually. Let me contact Miss Small right now, to see if it is even possible.

i forgive you.

i hope that it can help, let me know if you want me there.

but i want you to be careful around jesse from now on. i'm saying this as someone who loves him, not one of the people crying for blood, but sonya is right in saying that jesse isn't stable. if he can be kept calm, he's fine, but with the way things are escalating, please be careful

[she has a moment where she has to hold back tears. Everything has been terrible these last few days with no signs of it getting better, and things like Steph forgiving her is enough to make her cry. She holds it back, though. She has to handle all of this first]

I spoke with Miss Small - she agreed to let Saul be there. If you wish to come too I am not against it. I do not want him to feel as though I am ganging up on him. I have also told her that I do not want Sonya there. So it will simply be me and Miss Small.

I will. I have heard him in his cell and. It is like an entirely different person. Why has he gone so mental over all of this? I do not really understand, aside from - you know.

[With everyone else, she's been fairly vague about the state of well, Jesse.

But Tempest deserves the truth, or at least as much as Steph can give it, from her own understanding of the situation.]

i'll talk to saul and see what he says, but sonya not being there is definitely a good idea. if you still want a lawyer, i can talk to a friend who'd probably be willing to represent you.

i know. it really does seem like two different people. he feels betrayed, and he's scared and paranoid, so he's lashing out. he's not well, tempest. i don't know what the understanding of mental health is like in your world, but what we'd likely call this is a psychotic break. the best option would be to medicate him to keep him stable, but without the resources and mental health professionals, it isn't an option we can really persue

I do not know what a lawyer's purpose even is, with all of this going on. I do not need anyone representing me.

Mental health is not really a . . . thing? In my world? There are those who are crazy and psychotic, but many of them simply channel it into fighting or other things. [or into being murderers who burn down villages and try to kill their girlfriends] Is he even aware that his paranoia is because of what he has done?

Edited 2013-11-24 10:26 (UTC)

they're meant to represent your best interests and take care of you, but i think it's clear that sonya isn't quite doing that

where i'm from, we know that insanity is often caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain. it can be treated with medication and therapy, but for someone to get better they have to want it. jesse doesn't think he deserves the chance to get better, or he doesn't think he's capable of it, so it's hard.

and no, i don't think he's aware of it. that might be asking too much of someone who's in the state he's in.

I think she is trying to, but she is going about it in the wrong way.

Why in the world would he think that? I do not understand all of this modern medicine and therapy, but he - damn but he is being an idiot. If only it were easy enough to smack enough sense into a person.

and she's letting her own feelings get involved. it's exactly what saul's done wrong with all this, and now sonya's doing it too.

because other people have hurt him and convinced him that he's bad. the world has really fucked him over, and that doesn't make it okay, what he's done. but it's part of the reason why he's acting the way he does.

Yes, I know. I spoke with Saul during and after. We had a bit of a yelling match at each other the first time.

Maybe I can talk to him about that - as someone who was also fucked over by the world. Just - anything to help him. I do not want to see him hurt, I want him to get better.

he does that.

you can try, but please be careful. after he was taken into custody i spent a long time trying to calm him down, and it wasn't pleasant. i'm not saying you can't handle it, but it's easy to underestimate people like jesse. i'd rather not see you get hurt again. and if it gets worse, you don't need to blame yourself.

Jesse and I have spoken before and. We are a lot alike in many ways. He understands the things I have told him about my life. Things I have done.

I cannot hope to even claim I can handle it, but I have to try.

it's the same with me and him. and it helps, but it might not be enough

be careful, tempest. and let me know if there's anything i can do to help. i don't agree with what you guys did, but this has all gotten completely out of hand and i don't wanna be mad at anyone anymore

You will be the first I contact if I need you Steph, thank you.

And I know. I am getting rather tired of being upset and angry. I - honestly, I cannot take much more of this.

you're welcome

[As of tomorrow, she'd refuse to do anything that involves being in a room with Jesse, though.]

rosyln's trying her best to resolve this quickly. how about a deal, you make it through this, and we'll crack open my last bottle of tequila once it's all done?

Miss Small? She is doing her best, and I applaud her for it. She has been more than helpful to us. I wish people would see that.

I do not know what tequila is, but if it is alcoholic than I am all for that.

people are too angry. i was too, but being angry isn't helping anyone. i'm trying to help her how i can.

it's definitely alcoholic

I am glad to hear that. Someone should buy that poor woman a drink after all of this.

Oh, good. I am absolutely for it, then.

we should let her take a vacation and buy as many drinks as she wants

i'll make sure to save some salt and lime and teach you how we do things on earth. it'll be fun

That sounds like a lovely idea. I do not think they would even have a problem with me going, since you and she will be there. Flawless plan.

That sounds rather odd but I will look forward to it.

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tempest bb :(

someone get her off this crazy train

steph wants off, too

let's go to belize and I don't mean that in the breaking bad way

deal; they'll have to talk the npcs into letting them go but steph can sweet talk

after everything I don't think they'll be too against it

bribing with booze might help

it'll absolutely help booze is a very good bargaining chip

the best tbh

absolutely but we gotta make sure we have enough for us

that's why steph is friends with ella tbh

you got the hookup girl

she knows how to play this game

mvp right here

p. much

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