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[hyanaimne]

[MEMORIES . . .

Well Lace isn't here surely this won't be as bad as last time!!]

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[hyanaimne]

[now the glare is directed at him]

Do what. You need to be more specific so I know what I am saying no to.

[redatheart]

[he's not glaring back, but his gaze in return is very level]

In the event that our offer isn't accepted, I will be the one to die.

[he even manages to keep from his voice from showing any fear when he says the word 'die', because he knows if he shows any hesitation about it, she'll pounce on that.]

[hyanaimne]

Then I will sacrifice my life for yours.

[it's almost as though she's thought this out or something] I'm not going to stand here and watch her kill you.

[redatheart]

Ah, and you think that I'd be all right with the reverse scenario?

[hyanaimne]

I am more than capable of taking my own life.

[redatheart]

Clover, that is not the point.

[hyanaimne]

Then don't watch.

[redatheart]

That's not the point either!

[oh look he's getting legitimately angry]

[hyanaimne]

Then what is the point? Because I'm not letting you die, Ampere. [there's only the tiniest waver in her voice] I can't.

[redatheart]

[the sound of that waver settles him a little. Not enough to make him agree, but enough bring him back from anger.]

The point is that we need to think of a solution that saves us both. It makes no sense to offer your life for mine.

And I have no intention of letting you die either.

[hyanaimne]

It makes plenty of sense. [because his life is far more worthy than hers but she isn't voicing that thought out loud]

If we were to find a solution, though, it means one of us or both would have to sacrifice something, yes?

[redatheart]

Yes, we would have to.

[hyanaimne]

. . . what would you sacrifice?

[redatheart]

[he thinks about it, for a few long moments]

My memories of Nadia.

[hyanaimne]

[she stares at him, then looks away, crossing her arms tightly]

No.

[redatheart]

Why not?

[hyanaimne]

She is someone important to you, yes?

[redatheart]

Which would make it an effective sacrifice.

[hyanaimne]

Would you let me give up memories like that?

[redatheart]

[very smoothly]

Yes, I would.

[hyanaimne]

[this is a long, searching look, before:]

So you will let me give up my memories of you?

[redatheart]

[there's a flicker of something, but he mostly manages to stay cool]

Yes. But I believe that would be overkill, if I also gave up my memories of Nadia.

[he'd let her, you know, but...he's not going to let her.]

[hyanaimne]

[she sees that. And her expression says as much]

I would rather die than make you give up your memories of her, Sayid.

[it's very odd and very wrong to call him that - and she actually briefly winces, almost guilty - but she's trying to make a point here] Just as I'd rather die than give up my memories of you. I do not care how temporary it is.

[redatheart]

[there's a moment of visible shock at hearing his name coming from her lips, almost hurt

and then he buries it again, crossing his arms over his chest]

You would not be making me do anything.

[also unsaid is that he absolutely still...wouldn't...give up his memories of her because. it would be hurting her for him not to remember her. not the other way around.]

[hyanaimne]

[she's definitely looking away now, hands falling to clench at her sides again. Deep breath in, deep breath out, don't crumble . . . ]

I don't know why you would offer something like that in the first place.