[it's a very quiet admission. this time around is even worse because he knows how painful and frightening it is to die.
her request makes him pause, and he almost, almost argues again because he doesn't want her to watch him die, he doesn't want her to be the last one alive, and that's what he's pretty sure she's going to do.
...but in the end he hands it over. BUT ONLY BECAUSE he's also looking her straight in the eyes as he does, and telling her:]
I don't blame you. You are not to blame yourself.
[he will make very many faces at her if he catches her doing it]
Re: DECISION
[it's a very quiet admission. this time around is even worse because he knows how painful and frightening it is to die.
her request makes him pause, and he almost, almost argues again because he doesn't want her to watch him die, he doesn't want her to be the last one alive, and that's what he's pretty sure she's going to do.
...but in the end he hands it over. BUT ONLY BECAUSE he's also looking her straight in the eyes as he does, and telling her:]
I don't blame you. You are not to blame yourself.
[he will make very many faces at her if he catches her doing it]